More than half a year....

More than half a year have passed without yours truly realizing that I have not been blogging. A lot of things have happened. Attended several weddings, birthday parties and other social gathering - all happy occasion. Nevertheless, at the moment I am quite depressed. Sigh.

There's nothing specific that I am truly dissatisfied. More like that it is the accumulation of all the things that have happened for the past half year.

Sometimes the event around me seems like a blurry images. At times I felt that I do not want to wake up and face the world. Times like this, I told myself that there are a lot more people that is in worse position than me. AND that is the problem. I know I should be more grateful with my life. I have a good job. It pays quite reasonable in comparison with my peers. Sure, the hours sucks and the pressure is maddening but you can't have it all - right? I am surrounded by family and friends. I get to buy things that I want.

BUT I still feel depressed.. Wondering what's wrong with me. I just hope that my blue mood would cease...as soon as possible. Although if a friend read this, he/she might be wondering why am I depressed. Or am I actually depressed as I do look happy to most people. Maybe my standard of happiness is higher than most. Something to ponder on.